Hi

Hi.

Thanks for taking the time to check-in.

It has been a long time since I have expressed myself in such a manner; to write for an audience. There is so much chaos in my head. Philosophies, explosions, sex, violence, euphoria, Christ, regret, and death and yet, it seems I cannot get it all out, and therefore I must write. If you speak to me long enough you may notice my speech to be disorganized, or my rhetoric to be long-winded. It could possibly be the disorder, but not everyone believes in such things. The good report is I have not lost my belief in prayer. Everyone should pray. It is a good thing indeed.

Talk about it, but keep it short.

In the year of 2018, I attempted suicide...Now I am recovering.

This here, blog, is part of my recovery.

I'm still processing
the fire,
the dreams,
and the reality of it all.

However, I can at least say "thank you," to all the Marines, Bruins, wives, kids, my sister and her friends, Samuel and all his friends, Mrs. Terry, and all the nurses and doctors who have in some way touched my life and left an imprint.

I am alive.
I am here.
I am still here.

I am a survivor. That is the miracle.

I hope you come back because this is just the beginning of what is

INSIDE MY MIND.

Until next time.

Cheers!

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Currently reading: The Grapes of Wrath
Currently listening to: Spiderman - Into the Spiderverse (Soundtrack)
Pain-level: 3