The Miracle of Resurrection

A year ago today I lit myself on fire. I should have died, but my body and spirit didn't give up on me. I was in a coma for weeks, and in the hospital for four months. 85% of my body was burnt. The tendons in my fingers were burned, so I can no longer bend them like a normal person. I lost half of my left ear, and most of my skin is scarred. There are only a few parts of my old skin that remains. It's a reminder of the past. It's crazy to think that I am alive today typing this now.

To rise like the Phoenix from the ashes.

Life is now different. My body has transformed. No longer can I hide the pain. No longer can I run from the truth. I was blind, but now I see. My scars are everywhere. Like a full body tattoo, you can see them on my arms, neck, legs, toes and my face. They are mine, and I have grown to love them. I am learning to love myself the way God sees me. I am learning to ask for help. "No man is an island."  One of my old professors told me that. I'll never forget it. 

The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist.

You cannot reason with madness. It has no boundaries. It has no rules. It has no logic. It has no beginning, nor an end. It is nothing. It is fruitless. It is meaningless. You cannot debate it. You cannot fix it. You cannot possess it, but it can possess you. Insanity is like jumping off a bridge expecting to fly when you fully understand that you cannot do such a thing. The curse of creativity is not the ability to create, but the the inability to not create. We must. The blessing is that you can read this. You can share it. You can like it. That is the gift.

Moving forward I hope to help others in whichever way I can. I don't know yet what that means, but if I can help one person from making such a life-altering decision, I think that would give me reason to believe that this event in my life can be viewed as a "good" thing. I didn't realize the impact I had on people until I saw the GoFundMe page that was set up on my behalf. Wow! Incredible! I'm forever grateful. 

I'm still working through a lot of things. I'm still recovering, but I'm getting help. I'm getting the help I so desperately needed years ago. 

Thank you for reading.

Happy Resurrection!

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Pain-level: 3

Currently listening: JRE episode #543

Currently reading: You Are What You Think

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Mystery-link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BZlyxS37Kk

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